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Life Stories: part 1I haven't slept in days.
I remember it like a scene from some action flick.
On goes the slow-mo. Zoom onto the barrel.
"Click" goes the hammer, releasing the firing pin.
The explosion. The muzzle-flash. The bullet traveling at mach-three.
The bullet vanishes as the scene speeds up to normal time.
I release the trigger. I breathe deep.
I'm gonna be fucking sick.
It's called "Killer's Guilt Syndrome". They tell you about it at police academy. The way first time killers get so overwhelmed by the enormity of what they've done that they are rendered physically and sometimes mentally ill. They try to prepare you for it in case a perp needs to be taken down in the line of duty. The lessons mean shit.
The depression, the insomnia, the overwhelming guilt, nothing prepares you for it.
I started smoking again. I haven't been able to sleep. The scene keeps playing over and over in my mind like a sports action replay. Thank God I've been able to avoid the bottle so far.
Jeremy Range was two-bit pun
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